As much as I love to discuss wedding topics, sometimes I just get burned out. I am beyond excited to become a Mrs. and make that forever commitment to my amazing fiance, but occasionally the things in between getting a pretty shiny ring on my finger and the actual big day are just exhausting. I feel like I’m in an endless tunnel of making phone calls, getting prices, picking colors palettes, determining themes, etc. It makes me want to run away! I’m on theknot.com pretty much every day in search of new pictures and ideas that I might be able to use. But my problem is that I have no idea what I want. Let me clarify- I know my big picture, I just don’t know how to make it happen. I don’t mean to be a big whiney complainer it’s just that-

I feel like I’m walking around with my veil on and embroidered in big rhinestone letters down the back is the word: FAIL.

I’m a girl who has dreamed about my wedding my whole life. So how do I have no idea what I want? It’s a wedding- everything is beautiful and there are so many fun and interesting ideas to choose from. There are endless possibilities to create your perfect day. These options are vast and confusing and it’s hard to choose knowing that this BIG day is your ONE day. There are no do-overs. It’s a lot of pressure! It’s also difficult when you’re planning one out of town. Chris and I have decided to keep our wedding in our hometown, since both of our families reside there. This means every decision we need to make results in a 5+ hour drive from Columbus to Buffalo. We’re coming up on a big decision next weekend: deciding on a venue. We’ve seen one that is a definite maybe and we’re looking at a few more before making a final decision. But we are making a final decision. That thought is exciting and terrifying.

I made another decision too. I am totally in love with these flowers.

They’re anemones. I find them to be completely beautiful. I enjoy things that are slightly unconventional. I want a huge bouquet filled with anemones and fiddleheads. Modern, romantic and slightly whimsical. Perfect. The one pictured was featured on Martha Stewart. I also love the polka dot ribbon.

I know this seems like no big deal. But for an incredibly indecisive person, such as myself, these little things are cause for great celebration! And in my world of bridal FAIL, the little decisions are feats of glory that suggest that maybe I’m not completely hopeless.